Waco, Texas [Lyrics] - Ethel Cain

My honey's heart is blue and a second offbeat Always tugging at me like he's running out of daylight Yeah, my baby acts cool but they all know something ain't right, ain't right Only acting this cool when he's walking with me 1998 forever and a day I keep the pictures hanging where the world can see 'em I hope I die today Save me from another late night of red eyes But then the morning comes You were there looking for me but I I was gone, turned my back for a moment and You had fallen apart They've been promising the lights as we beg for our lives Selling pages of the times we've been waiting on Now the weight's too much and I can't hold you anymore How much of a cruel year can you call my fault? Not even the memories are immortal Terrified on this side of a conversation A conversation we'll never come back from I'll never live it down if I never get around it 'Cause goddammit, I did it to myself in hindsight I liked him 'cause his rule was, "Do whatever you like, " and I tried, alright Now I'll wear these scars for life I loved you when it hurt inside to But in the low light You know I'd do anything for you You know I'd do anything for you You know it's true, 'cause I've said it to you Held in my arms, I swore I'd be good to you, be good to you Then sat and watched as you walked away from me (ah, me, me) Yeah, you've changed But did I ever know you? Or did I hold you Facing away from me The air in your room never moves Live and die by TV no one's watching Do you hate me? When this is over Maybe then we'll get some sleep I've been picking names for our children You've been wondering how you're gonna feed them Love is not enough in this world But I still believe in Nebraska dreaming 'Cause I'd rather die Than be anything but your girl I never meant to hurt you But somehow, I knew I would Will it be like this forever? I'd reach into your body And fix you if I could Will I feel like this forever? (Forever, forever, forever?) Are you angry? Do you hate me? And darling, time may forgive me But I won't You know I'd do anything for you You know it's true, 'cause I've said it to you Held in my arms, I swore I'd be good to you Then sat and watched As you walked away from me (from me) So I bled 'til I cried, 'til I felt I might die To be known the way you should Is to put yourself through hell Still I waited and tried, 'til it killed me 'Cause you're right I can wait if I want But it'll never be good enough like I Want to believe it is, is, is